Thursday, December 30, 2010

Leading Ladies

As I spend my evening catching up on my most guilty pleasure shows and eating gluten free cinnamon raisin bread (surprisingly delicious), I though I might post something to hold you over for a few days. My best friend and I will be taking a trip to South Lake Tahoe for new years, and I am terribly excited.
Tonight, as I was driving home from the wake of a wonderful friend, I was discussing the topic of dream wives with an old friend from camp. As he laid down his list, which included Kesha and Joanna Newsom (of which I told him to never put the two in the same sentence again.. Joanna is a goddess), I thought I'd think up my own lesbian lovers list.. Which took about 5 seconds.

1. My definite number one is Mary-Kate Olsen. She is simply divine. I have been in love with MK since I can remember living in America. My sister Moorea and I used to watch the Olsen videos, and Moorea (named Ashley at the time) was always Ashley, and I was MK. And how incredible that in her 24 years on earth she and her sister have created an empire on their names? Her episodes in Weeds, as well as parts in The Wackness and Factory Girl... In conclusion, it's meant to be.

2. Natalie Portman is next in line. Not only is she an amazing actress but she is stunning, and can rap. And she gets triple points for being one of the only women on this earth that can rock a shaved head better than any man. She is beyond fierce. Garden State, Paris Je T'aime, V for Vendetta... You mesmerize me.

3. The third on my list is always up for change, but currently Jessica Zsohr is in the lead. I have a deep dark obsession with Gossip Girl. I admit it. I love it! Primarily for the fashion, and then next up for all the beautiful people that are in love with each other, of which I'd never have a chance at any of them. So I live vicariously through my computer and 72 minute intervals of Megavideo.

Question of the blog:
Fess up ladies and gents, who is your woman/man crush?

Wednesday, December 29, 2010


Everything is white, and forest green, and a silver blue-gray.
I'm driving, it's warm inside and my heart is full and I can see that today is the day after a storm, with everything fresh and serene. We are muted, like I pressed a button on the remote, but I'm smiling and laughing, watching myself from the back seat. Mountain air and the feeling of a new day.
As we make ourselves up a hill, I see a semi coming down towards us, its body buckling. The front and rear are horizontal to the road, coming towards us and I know there is nothing we can do but look upwards. And I turn to you, and I look at your eyes which match the trees behind you, and you are afraid.
The sun is shining through the trees and the view pans out, to a beautiful landscape, separated by a thin line of humanity.
I say to you,
"Things are going to be okay."
I show you I love you, and reassure you. "Be calm, and rest." I am smiling, and I see pure joy flowing out of me and surrounding you. The air is still, and I look around all around us, to see things changing. The snow on the ground and in the trees, taking shape into the feathers of the most beautiful bird. Radiant wings of all that surrounded us, down to our own bodies.
This was the transfiguration of our lives.

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Echoes of Better Days

Allow me to rant.
I like that we talk. Thoughts run in my mind like a moth as it revolves around the light. Easily frustrated by a cube, but when it's on paper, one through nine, I find beauty in repetition. All I want to say is that they don't really care about us. Memorial tomorrow. I will be with old friends and I will mourn and remember a friend who was overflowing with joy. Ready to travel. Tonight, I believe in true love. Confidence tonight. Loneliness. Navy, camel, rose. I'm hearting things aimlessly. Chopsticks and good conversation filled the evening.

By Itself

Singular: adj
1. Of or relating to a separate person or thing: individual
2. Of, or relating to, or being a word form denoting one person, thing or instance (a singular noun)
3. Of or relating to a single instance or to something considered by itself

Monday, December 27, 2010

i need a fix 'cause i'm going down
nwod gniog m'i esuac' xif a deen i
going down
nwod gniog

Hey, Buddies

(The Great Buddies, in the maroon staff shirt. Biggest, craziest heart.)

Not prepared to let you go.
I'll be missing you, Buddies.
Darick Sprague
August 8, 1990 - December 25, 2010

Saturday, December 25, 2010

In Black and White

More photos from my engagement photo session with Selene and Andrew. I will be posting these as I finish editing them.

Question of the blog:
If you are not married yet, are you the type of person that has their weddings all planned out already, or would you rather not think of it until the time comes?
If you are married, how long did it take to plan your wedding?

Thursday, December 23, 2010


Love. Selene and Andrew, taken by me. December 2010


(Image via WeHeartIt)

Cause I'm Lookin' Up.. Lookin' For Somethin' To Fall.

The other day, I cried. But you know what? Fuck that day. That's why God, or whoever, makes other days.
From the movie Precious 2009

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

In Two's.

Second ever engagement photo session with a couple. Wish me luck today.

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Blood Tests

Dear Needles,
I don't really like you. I mean you do great things like pierce my nose and save people and stuff, but you kinda freak me out. While you sucked up my blood today for a panel of sorts, you made me all woozy and lightheaded. I got all pale and shaky, and you know, I really didn't like it. I hope one day that medicine advances so that they can test my body from something other than my blood. I'm carrying precious cargo and I've only got a few pints in there, and I'm not willing to share with you.
Alexandra Seal

Life Lessons

(image via Tumblr)

My Side

Finally well rested today.
I've been having a hard time sleeping while I'm at home. Maybe I've just been missing my bed at school, which is big and warm and comfortable. I have two twins put together and a nice little mattress pad which keeps me oh so cozy at night.
Nevertheless, yesterday as I finally slept in a comfortable bed, I realized, I'm a right sided bed sleeper. So this blog is my question to you.

Question of the blog:
If you're facing the bed at the foot of it, which side of the bed do you sleep on? Left, right, or do
you take it all over?

(All images via WeHeartIt)

Monday, December 20, 2010


As Seen In A Dream

Greg Martin.
I want to take photos like this one day.

More art by Greg Martin

Question of the blog:
Music, drawing, dancing, photography, etc.. Which form of artwork draws your attention the most?

Sunday, December 19, 2010

On The Tree

Put the lights on the tree.
The tree went up, the lights came on, and tomorrow we will decorate.

It's been a good winter break so far.
New clothes, gluten free mac n' cheese, photos with sister.

I'm reminding myself to stay busy.
Make plans, keep them, follow through, and have a good time.

(All images from WeHeartIt)

Question of the blog:
What SMELL reminds you of Christmas?

where the heart is

no need to say a word
you have a home with me

Saturday, December 18, 2010

much needed day with my most favorite friend.

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

In My Life

The summary of my first semester in San Diego:
Unpacking. Solana Beach. Swimming. Sun kissed skin. Adjustments. Dropping. Birthdays. New friends. Stars. Giants. Designated driving. Tears. Travels. Miramar. Ocean days. Disneyland fireworks. Photoshoots. Family visits. Sushi. Apple pie. Losing you. Stepping out. New places. Basketball. Disposable cameras. Halloween. Tattoos. Dress up parties. Dream interpretation. World Series. Independence confused with loneliness. Girls nights. Solo road trips. Christmas traditions. Chalk.

Question of the blog:
How would you summarize the last 5 months?

Keep It

Keep life meaningful

Ocean tomorrow.
Splashing in the waves, clouds overhead, but that's okay, because I like it and that's what makes me feel like I'm at home.

Question of the blog:
I like the feeling of really cold ocean water. When it hits my skin, I get this rush of emotion that bursts out of my body in laughter. I laugh uncontrollably as I shiver in the water.
What is something that makes you genuinely laugh?

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Monday, December 13, 2010

Lucasfilm Ltd.

a long time ago, in a galaxy far, far away...

Saturday, December 11, 2010

Dreams Sent To Me

Late at night I wander
Across the street and down the road
I hum myself a little tune
Till my racing heart has finally slowed
I've felt a little lonely
In crowds or rooms filled just with me
Time spent on my own
More than ever it seems to be
But as time progresses

It seems my crowds prefer me gone
Proportioned time

But I'm not deserving of that prison
So I'll be far enough away before the dawn

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Dear Ambellina,

Pray for us all


spring 2011

i will be successful next semester.

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Sunday, December 5, 2010

I'd Have A Lot of Nickels

Visiting Miles in San Luis Obispo, the happiest place in the US.

Wednesday, December 1, 2010


I have not unpacked since arriving in San Diego.
I have yet to even wash my hair.
Something tells me my heart was left somewhere on the coast of California.


It's the new rage, so we hear..