Sunday, October 31, 2010


her hourglass body has told you


Saturday, October 30, 2010

don't say i love you without saying it out loud

it's hard, so i won't say it at all
and i won't stay very long
but you are the life i needed all along
i think of you as my brother although that sounds dumb
and words are futile devices

i do.
war does not prove who is right


I cut open a gaping hole,
it reveals all the things I must remove.
To dig deep, scraping, cutting,
digging into the impurities.
Taking time, deep inside my mind.
I carve out how I see myself,
with moons and stars, I follow the night.
Oak trees, rooted firmly,
disconnected, old and withered.

And as I finish my pumpkin,
I am reminded that it's the end of October. Time is moving too fast.

Thursday, October 28, 2010

The Smoke, It Rises

Where this path leads
Writing to my lost one
A bitter sense of mourning

I know where this path leads
The wax falls down like tears
Smoke sends you heavenwards

And I am left in silence
With seasons ever changing
Our time stands still

Question of the blog:
First I'd like to preface this and let you know, this is just a cigar. I'm not downs for any other smoking devices. But you do what you want. Just throwing it out there, for me.? k...cooool..

This started off as a letter, but through writing it over and over, this is all I could get out. So this letter is for you, and you know I'm not saying sorry, but my sympathies for not sending it.

SO, the question is, do you like writing letters? Do you like receiving letters/packages in the mail?


glasses. camera. sufjan stevens. cookies. dry skin. cigars. writing letters. open window. plans. ashes. lost in thought. headache. memories. acoustic. wind. pumpkins.
tonight, i am alone.

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Life as a wanderer
Guided by freedom
Well traveled, never lost
Long road winding ahead
Hands open to serve always
Arms free, to hold this world
Feet moving one in front of the other
Eyes wide to see the world
Mouth closed, ears ready
Prepared for change
Heart available
Mind present

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Indisposable Dreams

You said to me be happy
And that's just what I did
But I took that advice and worked with it
Before it left your head.

Sunday, October 24, 2010

slo down

much needed weekend.

Thursday, October 21, 2010

I Choose Instead To Dwell In My Disasters

well i looked my demons in the eye,
laid bare my chest, said do your best to destroy me,
you see, i've been to hell and back so many times
i must admit you kind of bore me.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

This is Northern California rain. And I love it.

Monday, October 18, 2010

I need sidewalk chalk
more than anything right now.

Ceremonial Sacrifice

I look up and I ask why.
I open Pandora's Box, and keep it to myself.
I hold it in, to save the rest of the world from its pain.

I hold it in so you don't have to see.

Sunday, October 17, 2010

May Angels Lead You In

Clouds rest closely to the ground
Driving through without a sound
Heater on and headlights guide
And Lord you know how hard I've tried

Gates lead me home once again
The steady rhythm of that train
Doors wide open greet me in
Wipe off the moisture from my skin

Strum the chords you love to hear
I whisper quietly in your ear
Wipe away the tears you cry
I'll sing you now a lullaby

Now I lay me down to sleep
I pray the Lord my soul to keep
But if I die before I wake
I pray for God my soul to take

Saturday, October 16, 2010

And You Take, Because They Give

As we learn, as we age,
we've learned nothing,
and my body still aches.

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Miles Ago

Harsh lines separate the night from day,
as I wake up in foreign places after long nights.
Paint drips like water falls,
my skin is wet from those days at the river.
Black to white and ash,
Smoke rises and dissipates into thin air.
My feet up on the dashboard while you drive,
I sing those songs to the rushing air beside me.
As I recall those days ago,
the best summer of my life.

Always coming back home to you.

Question of the blog:
When was the best summer of your life?

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Not Once

Good morning. You are going to get through this day, just like you get through every day. You are going to lay your head to rest soon enough. Keep your eyes looking forward and your feet moving. Walking is just a series of falling towards your goal.

Sunday, October 10, 2010


Sushi, air conditioning, big beds, Mike's Hard Lemonade
French music, swimming pools, foreign languages
Happy birthdays,
Beautiful Sundays.

Friday, October 8, 2010

Strike One

Dear Septum Ring,
Don't you EVER sneak away from me in the middle of the night again. This is a warning. Just because my neighbors hate you, doesn't mean you can just leave without asking. This is a two way relationship here.
Alexandra Seal.

Question of the blog:
This photo was taken at American Apparel. The lighting in their dressing rooms is so amazing, I am tempted to go back and do photoshoots with my friends inside them.. Places like Hollister though, are ones where I'd rather wait outside than shop with my friends. It is so dark and crowded in there, I feel like I'm being suffocated.

Where do you like to shop? Is there a specific atmosphere you enjoy?

Thursday, October 7, 2010

Happy Thursday

This was last night. My life is a joke.

But I did receive this today:

Dear Alexandra,
Happy Thursday. You've made it through another week, and we are so proud of you. Here is a free caramel latte, perfect temperature, just for you. Have a great weekend.
Love Always,
Panera Bread

Oh, how I love you, Panera.
Also- Today was the day. Where my car celebrated its 121212nd mile birthday. YEE!

Question of the blog:
Do you play any instruments?
If you could play any particular one you do not currently play, which would you choose?

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Anxious For Nothing

Terry Winters

July 5, 1954 - October 5, 2009

...and GOD will wipe every tear from their eyes.
Revelation 7:17 b